Giving In To Cravings

Yo, I’m officially a “cravings” girl (that’s what hubby called me last night). I remember craving for pickles last week and I had to force my office friends to have lunch where I could buy a jar of pickles.

Yesterday, I craved for green mangoes. FYI, I’m not preggy (Exhibit A: Yasmin birth control pills) But I so wanted to eat green mangoes with alamang (shrimp paste).

With too much prodding (and bribing hubby to a one-hour back massage), he gave in and bought me green mangoes!

GREEN MANGOES

+

SHRIMP PASTE

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HAPPINESS

I Hate SM Megamall

It is so damn crowded. People coming from everywhere. Pretty girls, ugly ones, cheap girls, trying-hard ones (trying hard to be young or look young, trying hard to look expensive, etc). All the kinds you can think of. People of different scents and odor. Gah, the whole place is HOT and smells like sweaty people!

Why does Megamall have to be like this? Is it because of Christmas?

I haven’t been “at home” with Megamall. It has always been so “cheap” for me. Not that I mean something harsh on people, I’m actually referring to the place. I don’t see any improvement there. I mean like, I can live without seeing that place in 10 years and find it to be the same Megamall 10 years after. Yah, there’s a new wing but what do they sell there? What are the restaurants there? Jeez, Megamall, there’s no harm in trying… harder.

Okay. I go to Megamall once in a while just to check out something that I don’t find in a shop’s branch elsewhere. But that once in a while might change to “never.” Fine, fine, at least for the Christmas season alone

But seriously, I hate Megamall for being so crowded. And I hate hate hate hate haaattttteeeee it.

That’s how much I hate crowded places

P.S. At least it’s better than SM Batangas where the displays three years ago are still the same until now har har

 

A Raiding Guild is NOT a Leveling Guild

Okay, this is guild drama and it’s inappropriate to bring it over here. But I figure there’s a lesson that should be told from what happened.

At 10:34AM Aman’Thul server time today, someone /gquit.

 

He’s a shaman, an alt of one of our rogue raiders. Apparently, he was asking if anyone was interested in heroic farming but nobody wanted to go. After a moment of not getting a favorable reply, this happened:

he meant “unappreciative”

he meant “mains”

If you will allow me, I’m gonna read the title of the post again for emphasis ~

You can level alts, fine. But you CANNOT force anyone in the guild to run you. I don’t think that’s what our guild was there for to begin with.

You can raid with your alts, fine. AS LONG AS you are asked to by the raid leader or guild master.

You can farm heroics to gear up your alts too, that’s fine. But you CANNOT and SHOULD NOT force your guildies to take you on a heroic binge then /gquit if they don’t.

When this guildie left the guild, I just logged over from my priest to my warlock. I was gonna get some dusts from her.  To be honest, I didn’t even pay attention to what he’s saying because I was just getting stuff done before I get back to bed coz I’m not feeling well and have slight fever.  Hubby just needed something to level enchanting before he goes to work. We normally are not online at that time of the day. But when I saw the guy leave the guild, I had to trace back to what he said and let it sink in. I never even had an opportunity to say something back. In my mind though, too bad it’s another of those immature /gquitting… and at what, 7:30 in the morning?!? LOL

Hubby asked me what was going on and I was like, what’s goin on with what? That’s the only time I noticed the  due has left the guild. Then I checked who’s online and noticed that there were only four (after the dude has /gquit) of us online.

Slowly, I felt “rage” building up inside me. Which reminds me btw, I hope I build up rage  faster as a tank than I build up my rage in real life hehe

Now here’s my message to my guildie:

Dear Guildie,

It’s unfair for you to accuse the guild of being unappreciative in general only because no one wanted to do a heroic binge with you. It’s ok (in fact, nice of you) to help others level their alts but I’m under the impression that you did that voluntarily. Fine, it’s normal for you to expect others to help you back (in fact, that’s what should be done in the normal scheme of things), but I doubt if it’s a fair reason to leave the guild and refer to everyone in the guild as being unappreciative only because of that. You don’t know, in the same way that I don’t know, what our officers are doing to reach out to everyone’s whims so please, let’s spare the guild of such “unappreciative” accusation.

You can leave. I don’t care. Our guild master and the rest of the guild probably would, but to tell you a bitter truth about it, the raids will still go on.

Now here’s why I don’t think you were fair:

1) I hope you checked the time. That was 10:34AM server time. I don’t know where in outer space you are from but in my planet, it’s like 7:30AM. For all you know, people just woke up. Fine, you saw these people hanging around in the auction house. Does that fact make it fair for you to expect them to drop what they do for your heroic binge? I guess nope. Maybe people are just waiting for breakfast or a call or an important visitor that’s why they only do little things to fill up their time. All we can do is speculate and with that, YOU SHOULDN’T HAVE  EXPECTED EVERYONE TO BE AS FREE AS YOU ARE OR EVEN LIKE WHAT YOU WANTED TO DO.

2) Again, let me emphasize the time. Would you even have gotten that fussy about it had you been able to get a group in LFG? I guess not. So it’s not the guild being unappreciative or something. It’s the FACT that you can’t get a group AT THAT FREAKING HOUR OF THE DAY. I’m sorry sweetie but not everyone is a WoW junkie like you are who breathes and lives for heroics or raids even before you have brushed your teeth in the morning. Some of us have a life, ya know.

3) Check out the people online. Did you notice how many people are there at the time you asked? Not everyone is online yet so you had a very little audience when you asked for a group. I’m sure had you asked at a different time of the day, you’d be able to get a guild run going. Oh wait, that will be too late now as you accused the guild of being unappreciative then left. And since you referred to the guild generally, that would include even people who weren’t online. That sucks. Apart from being absurd.

 

4) /Gquitting over that is the most immature thing to do. You can do that, have it your way. But still, that’s too immature of you. You should have known from the start that we are not a twink/leveling guild. We are a raiding guild. I’m sure raiding means more to you than it does for me, and I was expecting you to have even slightly considered that. So what now, I can force everyone to run my level 14 pally to Dead Mines then /gquit if guildies don’t? Or force everyone to run my level 72 death knight to Utgarde Keep then /gquit if I can’t get a group in the guild? Or force guildies to run me several times over in TOC just so that I can get a trinket that drops from there then /gquit if nobody thinks it’s worth their time?

THAT’S WAY TOO IMMATURE DUDE.

I have a lot of friends in the game who helped me and hubby’s toon get back when we fell behind. I’m aware of the fact that WoW essentially is a teamwork. And these friends, not for a bit, expected us to return the favor although we try.

I THINK WHAT YOU NEED IS REASON AND MATURITY.

Anyways, you have left the guild before and I’m not aware of the conditions for your return. If somehow you find yourself back to our guild again, I am hoping this would not happen again. And I am hoping that our guild officers will do something about this.

A good dps may be hard to replace but hey, EVERYONE in the game is DISPENSABLE. No one in this game should feel that it’s ok to play with guilds around  (quit then come back, quit then come back, quit-then-bash-the-guild-then-come-back) just because he feels he is indispensable. The moment that someone feels that he is NOT dispensable in a guild is the very precise moment that he should be dispensed with.

TO HELL WITH ARROGANCE.

Sincerely,

Thella

P.S.

Last last night, you were asking what the cause of bad attendance or lack of interest in raids is. I’m just playing devil’s advocate in my mind and  I’m thinking, what if that’s the real reason why you chose to leave the guild today?…. Whatever… I got better things to do

At the end of the day, the “angel” in me still pushes its way through and is forcing me to think otherwise. As I said, all we can do is speculate.

Maybe the dude just had a bad morning. He was cooperative to the guild as far as I know so maybe it’s his “other” person that took over earlier We have fits like that too at one time or another (don’t deny!)

I guess the lesson I just wanted to say is that we should act with reason even in a loose social environment like a game called WoW.

Musings About Love… and Hurt

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

~ Neil Gaiman

Confused

Okay, this is not about life, love and career as most of my friends would probably jump on their chairs the very moment they see this post in their blogroll. It’s about my toon choice in WoW. So friends, relax

See, I’ve always been a tank at heart (I used to be a warrior which, for me, is the best tanking class ever! i don’t want to start a debate… well, maybe I should. but this post isn’t about her so I’ll stop right there. warriors are the best tanks. period. ). The height of my tanking career was in TBC when I tanked everything all the way up to The Black Temple. When our guild broke apart, I switched focus to my warlock because the server at that time seems to be always looking for a ranged/caster dps.

Since then, I knew my love has shifted to my new baby… the dps-dominating mistress of the dark… my warlock

The level of satisfaction playing a tank didn’t match that of playing a warlock, at least to me. While tanking, except for cases where switching or movement has to be done, everything back then was practically tank-n-spank. With my lock, I found a little more utility in raid. I gave Blood Pact, SS, HS, can banish, and most importantly, top meters (not that meters matter to me now than it used to before). My lock is also the inspiration behind this blog (obviously). Cutting a long mustard short, I loved my warlock and to date, I still do, and I know that it’s always my lock that makes me want to stick around and play.

Now, here comes the part where my confusion lies. I’m always needed to heal in our guild. I told somewhere here before that I also have a holy priest which I pretty much enjoy playing with too. But in the heirarchy of my passion for all my toons, here’s the order:

1) Warlock

2) Priest

3) Mage (now level 66)

4) Death Knight (now level 74)

5) Warrior (now level 72)

 

I guess I’m really meant to be a caster than a meat shield

With the guild needing me more on my healer, I don’t have enough time devoted to my warlock. My lock is now left out in gears, achievements, and experience. I feel that I am out of touch with her. The only time I get to be with her is during those rare free moments that I can chuck in a heroic or two before our raids.

I want to make my warlock my main again, but how? We’re packed on dps, we lack healers. If I make her my main, I’m not guaranteed a sure spot in raids. That makes it futile. I don’t know what to do.

/sigh